Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Book Closes

When one chapter of your life ends it is time to start a new one. All we can do in life is do our best and sometimes it isn't enough.

A door in my life has closed. Somewhere out there another awaits.

11 comments:

Elmers Brother said...

Sorry Beak.

beakerkin said...

Don't be. It was a very special time in my life I will treasure forever.

FJ said...

Why do I imagine you were on the verge of reconnecting with your roots? Perhaps you should try a little more of that, you seemed to find such solace in them.

beakerkin said...

FJ

I have no roots. I go where the wind
takes me. The wind took me home and I enjoyed myself.

The truth is I don't belong here any more. I wanted to be a part of the larger community. I tried for too long to be both.

I walked away mostly in bitterness to find myself. I journeyed to and fro for longer than I was apart of the community. I tried to return but the truth is I am not the same man as when I left. It was a grave mistake to return home. I do not belong here and there is nothing for me here.

I will return to whence I came and try to pick up where I left off.

I have nothing but good memories and it was a special time that sadly ended.

FJ said...

You AREN'T Northwind, beakerkin, you don't blow from place to place where life takes you. You picked NYC. You can make your life into ANYTHING you want it to be. Don't let these momentary headwinds blow you off the course YOU'VE selected. Something drew you back, and it's unlikely it was for the sunshine.

beakerkin said...

FJ

You are correct. I am NYC to the core,just not part of an insular community. I am part of the larger NYC world and I long for its adventure.

I could have had a great life if it worked out.

I will return to my prior life and just live as the man from nowhere.
There is nothing for me to return to. I belong out there experiencing life.

Maybe there will be another book. It just will not be from the same library.

mynameismax said...

I FOUND YOU TOO ON THAT OTHER GUYS BLOG WITH SCARYU MUSIC AND AN EYE.
YOU SOUND SAD. I HAVE TRIED THESE THINGS THT LOOK LIKE TATOR TOTS BUT SURPRISE SURPRISE ITS MACAROONI AND CHEESE. IT WILL CHEER U UP. I AM IN NEW YORK TOO.

Z said...

hey, max, don't look now, but I think you're actually in Elkhart, Indiana or something.
Something's up.
mhmmmmmmmm

Always On Watch said...

Maybe your recent change will bring you my way?

My welcome mat is always out for you.

Don't give up on the beauty of life, Beak.

The Merry Widow said...

And you still have people that care about you and your life!

Go see AOW, that should cheer you up, or take that trip to the heartland, there are several people who would love to see you.

tmw

Steve Harkonnen said...

Hang in there, Beak. Just be glad you didn't invest any more of your precious time on her.