Wednesday, June 11, 2008


I consider myself to be a very fortunate person. I am blessed because my coworkers care so deeply
about me that they put up with my antics. Those who know me in my personal life know my nature
is much different than what you see here.

I work with a dedication to do my best. Unlike many other jobs I am very aware of the power and responsibility of my job. In many cases I work very hard to put things right that have been wrong for years. When my time comes I will know that I have changed many lives.

I have a special friend who works down the hall. She takes life a bit more seriously than I do. She noticed that in the heat wave my behcavior was very off. I had given a cashier a $20 and she returned change of a five. She claimed my responses were not close to norms and I insisted it was due to the heat. Sadly we must wear ties even in unairconditioned offices. I wasn't drinking enough water and placed the fan on my applicants.

The friend insisted I go to the nurse and was smart enough to not trust me to tell the truth. She
probably saved my life.

Many of us live with the quiet depression that our lives are empty. Sane religious people like Warren, Junglemom or TMW find purpose and sanity from their faith and family. The insane types turn the political into a warped faith. When I worked in the fashion industry or other jobs
I made good money but my life was empty. My life was a number on a balance sheet. If I died the names and result meant little.

Along the way I met many interesting people. I am not easy to work with as I am somewhat enigmatic, but most people understand that I am a good person with an odd mix of gloom and cheer. Yesterday most of my office stopped by to express their concern. Even people from other departments stopped by. I am touched that several of the interpretors took time to visit and expressed concern.

Ultimately I work for the American people. Few people get to serve that which they love with their heart and soul, perhaps Junglemom understands. I am blessed to be part of a team and being a regular guy is always keeping up your role. Even though I was under the weather I still kept up my pace.

I will have to rest for a bit and taking a day off is not easy. The ultimate call was made by my boss who put me on medical rest . I am not allowed to return until this matter is resolved. I
can't be angry at my special friend for watching my back. The running joke is that if you want me to do something just place this friend in charge. I never took lunch breaks and she makes sure I stop relax and do not eat the wrong things. I said those words that many of us never tell our friends in a soft gentle voice. I didn't think she heard but her smile and response indicated otherwise.

I am not an easy person to care for, but am lucky that so many make the effort.

Thanks to the many friends and readers who visit daily.

Take the time to thank the people who care for us even when we aren't so loveable.


Ducky's here said...

"She claimed my responses were not close to norms and I insisted it was due to the heat."

Don't tell me you pulled out your nine.

beakerkin said...

Ducky we do not carry weapons. I was allegedly disoriented and my responses lacked the energy and verve. We work with our withs and you would be stunned if you knew my fellow officers consider me too gentle and customer friendly.

FJ said...

Take care of yourself, beakerkin. I'm glad you've got some good people watching out for you. But you do have to stop and smell the roses now and again. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. ;-)

beakerkin said...


I returned from the doctor. My blood pressure was on the high side of normal. I was put on medication as a precaution.

There was a very bad reading at work.
The reading was a confluence of bad situations

1 I was in a room that was 91 degrees with no fan for 11 hours.
2 My boss tends to yell.
3 There was no water available.
4 I had a small lunch.
5 I had to wear a tie.

If my blood pressure were that number I would be pushing up daisies. I do need to be much more
responsible in diet and sleep.

Jungle Mom said...

Do take care! And tell your friend thanks for those of us not there to keep you in line. I am saying a prayer for you, Beak. Please rest.

Z said...

Ditto to all the people above who care about you like I do.
you couldn't be alone if you tried, babe..not with US around!
Thanks for letting us know what's going on, and please continue to let us know. your buddy, Z

FJ said...

The tie gets me every time! ;-)

Always On Watch said...

Watch for side effects of bp meds. But don't stop taking the meds.

And get a home bp-cuff to keep an eye on your readings.

Beamish said...

I have to wear "office casual" at my job, but ties aren't mandatory.

I will not wear a tie for less than $35,000 an hour.

The Pagan Temple said...

I hope you're all right, or will be. I'll make a deal with you-you stop worrying so much about the damn communists, and I promise to stop worrying so much about the damn Commanches (even though they are a greater threat).

beakerkin said...


I do not worry about communists. I kick their tail and poke my fingers in the their eyes.

The Commanche are no threat and are the people of good friend and mentor Dr Yeagley.

Always On Watch said...

Mr. AOW will not wear a tie except for funerals and weddings -- if then.

jams o donnell said...

Bloody hell it's no suprise with those working conditions. Take care. I hope you're feeling better.

As for your boss. I take the view that a boss that has to yell has no idea how to manage people

nanc said...

who said, "the person who invented the necktie ought to have been hung by one."?

it's the mantra of the men in my household.

take care of yourself - otherwise you're no good to anybody else.

Steve Harkonnen said...

Hang in there, Mr. Beak. Drink a lot of water and green tea!

I only wear ties on cruises on formal nights.

Warren said...

Buy yourself another fan and keep it pointed at your head and upper body. You'll have to use clipboards for the paperwork but that's just a minor inconvenience.

Wear cotton shirts,they will help keep you cooler.