2008 What a Year

When 2008 started I had just finished roaming the country. When it ended I had just started a relationship with the woman I had always dreamed of. 2008 was a magical year
for me. It had ups and downs but I never imagined I was still capable of a type of intense love. Through it all my loving blog family has been there each step of the way.

Many people misinterpret the changes I have made in my life as Sunbeam exerting control. That which is freely given is not control, nor would she ever do so. I wish to live a long happy life together with her and anything that furthers that goal makes me happy. Changing my diet, skipping dance clubs and missing football games are a small price to pay for happiness.

Mostly Good

I met with Sunbeam's parents in Baltimore. The meeting went well but we did get the expected slow down bit. They are wonderful people, but I made a point of bringing a big fruit basket. My family sent a bottle of wine, chocolate covered nuts dates. I treated
the entire family to a movie. One can not be too careful about seeing a movie with your
girlfriends parents but the Benjamin Button film worked. As usual I forgot the senior citizen discount, but Sunbeam rescued me.

We did not get to see AOW due to a very minor medical issue and the early Sabos.

I made a point of letting Sunbeam know she can drive my car. She enjoyed it so much I never got it back. The car was recently refurbished and is well tuned. I just drove a few blocks and that was it.

Sunbeam is a pleasure and I have never been happier in my life. I have never experienced such love and kindness in my life.

Sunbeam has figured out that I do know how to cook. In a previous relationship I did
all the cooking. We made a meal yesterday and I learned how difficult it is to cook for young children. In a large family such as the one I grew up in it was easier as it was impossible to cater to five kids. Sunbeam will be by my parents house in two
weeks. She is much easier to cook for than yours truly as I do not go near some vegetables.

I am a very lucky man as Sunbeam guides me with her light and warms my heart.

The First of Many Trips

Today Sunbeam and I take our first road trip together. It is another first for us. I will be reconnecting with her family after 20 years. My context will be much different
and I am now a man. However, this is somewhat easier on me and them because I am not an unknown.

One of the ultimate boyfriend tests is do you let your girlfriend drive your car. I enjoy my car, but Sunbeam is the love of my life so it is a no-brainer.

I am taking ribbing from the guys about not watching football to be with Sunbeam. I love Sunbeam and enjoy the Giants. There is no choice as every moment spent with Sunbeam is precious. This is the woman I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with. The choice should be obvious to those with a brain. Sunbeam did not force me to choose and understands. I will not be going to my coworkers superbowl party. I want to spend my time with Sunbeam.

I have always known Sunbeam was special and the type of woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Unfortunately, we never had a private conversation where I could convey my feelings. I am much different in private and those who see me in that
context will gladly inform you.

It is funny going from clown to romantic role model in my office. I still enjoy a laugh or two especially with good cases. However, my female coworkers prefer this aspect. Sometimes they smile at some of the stories like Sunbeam and I having the same taste in Art.

There is a picture in my office that is there for many reasons. There is a picture of me at 22 with my exwife. The Princess did not believe such an inept clown had ever been loved much less married and pestered to see a picture of my exwife. I never figured that she would deduce who the man in the picture was. The picture still creates a stir and is described as movie star good looks. The other day new workers were amazed and said it was no joke.

The picture served as a reminder to the twenty somethings that think they own cool and know everything about sex. It says point blank I was better looking and cooler than you will ever be. For the applicant the picture serves as a reminder of what a couple in love should look like.

I am an officer and am proud to serve the American people. However, when my life is summed up the title I will take greatest pride in will be beloved husband. There is now a woman behind my efforts and all my work is no longer a product of pointless pride. I always think about how Sunbeam has enriched my life and added purpose to my days.

I also am thankful to those of you who believed that something like this was possible. I remember and am reminded of the different reaction of my friends to Northwind.

I am going to see if we can get Sunbeam to visit over the weekend.

Taking the car out

It has been a year and a half since I returned from Vermont. I have only placed 2000 miles on my car since then. Most of that was done by Drummaster. The car has been in dry dock as a check engine light went off on Sunday. The radiator hoses and the transmission sensor went.

Even the mechanic was amazed at the good overall condition of the car. Sunbeam is going to switch her van for my sedan and the drive to Baltimore. She wants to drive my car and I trust her with everything else. I have never driven south on 95, but it is no big deal.

Yesterday Sunbeam got word that she passed the exit exam for her bachelors degree. Her graduate school application is still out there. She has a long road ahead to her Masters Degree.

I am so proud of her accomplishment.

The next hurdle is an MSW.

Christmas and New Years 2008

When 2008 opened I had just returned from a cross country trip. The year wasn't easy
but it had a great ending. I heard a voice from my past the one I always loved from afar reach out to me. I never thought I would be worthy of her grace and charm.

My life is much better now than it has ever been. I have the woman of my dreams by my side. After a life time of the big guy upstairs handing me comedic lines I not only get
the girl I get the one I longed for. My coworkers have noticed the change and I have also lost 50lbs over the year. Sunbeam not only fills my heart she has probably lengthened my days.

I am always thankful for my blog family who always stood by. Many of you always said I needed a good woman in my life. Most of you hated Northwind who just wasn't up to the job. At some point Sunbeam will stop in and you will get to meet her.

I feared love and this may sound funny. I always feared getting hurt or even worse hurting someone. Even the tears of someone unworthy like Northwind sting at my soul.
Even a chunky bachelor gets plenty of offers from many beautiful women. As men get older in NYC we go from doing the hunting to being the hunted. Sadly women find long term romance with men 15 years older or flawed men. I found myself tempted by many offers, but Sunbeam is the one I always wanted. I knew she was special even thirty years ago. I had no idea how vibrant she was and she has grown more beautiful over time.

It is a good thing to fall in love with the right person. I bask in the warmth of my
sunbeam. I count my blessings every morning and live for her smile or a text. I no longer am playing out my days or am racing towards infinity. I envision a series of wonderful misadventures with her as the chapters will only get better towards the end.

All right now it is time for you to help Beakerkin. I am planning to watch some films
with Sunbeam. Sunbeam was going to indulge me and watch some of my favorites but that
doesn't seem fair. Lets have some suggestions.

I was going to watch the Quiet Man and the Searchers with her.

Ducky Do not suggest Battleship Potemkin or mission to Moscow. Dr Zhivago might be good if she hasn't seen it.

New Direction

Those of you familiar with this blog know that the issues of domestic violence are important to me. I have written several posts about the issue at various times.

I will be given my highest honor and be trained to hear domestic abuse cases at work. I
consider it an honor as such cases require tact and sensitivity. These are the cases that I will remember for a lifetime.

I am fortunate in that I did not have to tell Sunbeam why this type of case is important to me. She knows this is my calling and loves me for it. Real men protect those who are vulnerable.

Riots in Greece

There used to be an arrogant condescension from Europe about riots in America. This arrogant mindset ignores its own rising crime rates, riots and social disorder. It may
have taken a while to get aid to the victims of Katrina. However, wholesale riots in France, Greece and elsewhere are a different matter. Katrina was a natural disaster, not a breakdown in law.

Leftists will spin these riots in their own demented anarcho marxist stupor. However,
such riots in a normal country push the votes to the right.

Those in Europe who look upon the rest of the planet as the apex of civilization need
to look in their own countries first. The ugly American has been replaced by the useless know it all Euro. Sorry, but Euros who visit Disney and NYC do not have a clue
about America.

Next on the List

I will be traveling to Baltimore to meet her family. Unlike my family, her family knows
me very well as I was frequently in their home for years. One might be surprised that knowing this that they still approve.

I am no longer the growing boy with the good sense of humor. I am not the college kid with the sweet boy band look anymore. I am officer Beakerkin and I have a larger than life persona even amongst officers.

I will be traveling with her to Baltimore. She really enjoys driving, so I will let her
drive my car. My car is not the easiest to drive, but she isn't frightened.

I am going to try and see AOW on the 26th with Sunbeam.

A Case of Nerves

Today Sunbeam meets my parents for the first time as my soul mate. I have complete confidence in her. My signal to my mother when she is been embarrassing is to mention
Shakespeare. Of course this does not work with an English major.

Sadly she has her finals and the meeting will be brief. Annoying professors do not make
allowances for couples in love.

I will be meeting her family next week. I know them for thirty years, but being a boyfriend is a different matter than family friend. Sunbeam knows her family and I will
rely on her.

Back from the Dead

Some of you were worried about me during my assignment. Sunbeam is a wonder and is truly my soul mate. She understands me better than I understand myself. Her smile and caring nature captivate me. I long to make her happy and live for her smile.

I had thought feelings like this were a relic of my life twenty years ago. I can talk with her about anything and she is my best friend. I consider myself blessed by her presence.

I have never been happier in my life than when I spend time with her.

Out of Town

I am on a work related assignment and will be away for a few days. Sunbeam is a revelation and brightens my days with her wisdom aand love. I am blessed.

Ladies have some sense

I am saddened by what appears to be another tragedy at a club in NYC. People go to these clubs are more often than not the wrong people. I dreaded going there with coworkers as I wouldn't go alone.

I hear the familiar complaint from my female coworkers that there aren't nice guys out there. They are out there, but you need to do your homework. Ask friends, family and coworkers as they know more than one will find in a club. If he is over 40 you may need to be more assertive and patient. He may have had a few bad relationships and has stopped looking. Treat the search as if you are looking for a new job. Learn to read his body language and eyes.

The clubs are filled with empty vain people. Things are not what they seem and people
believe too easily. I was supposed to go with my coworkers on Friday. However, when a man has a soul mate such places are wastes of time.

Nobody asked me but......

The Obama administration wants to create jobs via public works. The notion of domestic drilling must seem to elude Obama. Giving tax credits to build new and expand existing refineries and power plants would be a good place to start. Lets see if we have to endure another big digg.

NYC reacts to Mumbai

As predicted NYC has reacted to the massacre in Mumbai with special training.Sunbeam is
worried about my safety. I am in the safest location in the city on a low floor. Concrete barriers prevent traffic from approaching the building. Parking is tightly regulated and cars are inspected before entry.

The notion of a band of Mumbai style in my building is not likely as around 1/3 of the people who work here are armed. and entry is via revolving doors with several armed guards and metal detectors up front.

Sunbeam embodies the best of the nurturing qualities of womankind. Her concern over my safety is touching, but I am in the safest part of the City.

NYPD has begun training Police to deal with this type of attack. However, traffic and the vast numbers of crowded people make an effective response without large numbers of casualties unlikely. Mayor Bloomberg's antigun mania makes this type of attack more dangerous. In a mall or a crowded street such an attack would meet a disarmed populace.

Double game

Pakistan plays a double game of pretending to be all things to everyone. It pretends it
is trying to reign in terror even as Al Queda and the wacky anti Indian groups operate on its soil. The episode shows no matter how much is granted to some Muslims it is never enough. India gave up large portions of its territory to create Pakistan, an ethnically cleansed state. Muslims did not leave India and yet they demand more land for more ethnically cleansed states.

The double game is pretending to be doing something about terror while actually doing nothing at all other than provide excuses. Let India do what it feels it must. Perhaps the folks in Pakistan will get the hint that this double game needs to end.

Of Plaxico Giants and Beaker's

The Giants did the right thing by cutting ties with Plaxico Burress. Success is no substitute for sanity and sound judgement. Plaxico's idiotic antics proved too much and
he will likely never play for the Giants again.

I find myself in the midsts of many life altering choices. My new relationship with Sunbeam has prompted many changes in my life. I no longer eat junk food for lunch and eat fish and lean vegetables with a fruit cup for lunch. I no longer go with my coworkers to dance clubs on Fridays. If they are going to a regular bar I still join them. Some of my coworker's have questioned if these changes are the real me. These new changes are the real me. A good diet that is close to Kosher is helping me shed pounds.I have more energy as well. I have no interest in dancing with strange women who are mostly tanked. When the guys cut lose and have one or two is another story and part of the bonding experience that is important to officers.

The moral of the story is one can have everything and still make poor judgments. Behind every good man is a better woman and I count my blessings every day.

Mumbai and the human side of us

The attacks on Mumbai could have happened anywhere in the world. A group of ten terrorist armed to the teeth could have produced similar results in any big city
including NY. Hotels typically have one or two guards with pistols in NYC and malls
have a few more.

This new model is hard to deal with except for Israel or in other places where
large numbers of people are armed.

The media is scapegoating the police in India. No police department is really
equipped to handle four of these invasions in one place.

I also do not want to hear a peep from the usual suspects. The victims were tortured and India is justified in whatever retaliation it seeks. Of course when a Muslim child is blown up because a terrorist uses them as a shield the media wails and the Euros go into faux moral outrage.

These are not soldiers in a war and as such they deserve no protections. Soldiers in
a war do not tie up civilians torture them and execute them. The antics make a mockery of the professionalism of soldiers.

I do not want to hear excuses from CAIR clowns or Commies. Attacking Jews in India has nothing to do with Pseudostinians or whatever other fake nationalities the left contrives. One can name Baruch Goldstein only because his behavior was so out of the ordinary. Given the barbarism of these attack it is amazing that the rest of us show
restraint.

Sorry, but the excuses should have ended long ago.